Sometimes I wonder why I’m working another summer camp. My experience last year was what I often describe as “terrible”. Past grudges and unmemorable moments aside, I decided to try out the whole “camp counselor” deal this year.
I really enjoy being around kids. I like talking to them. I love their inhibited happiness 🙂
Unfortunatley, this is not what I’m experiencing this year at camp. There are so many children who come from so many different homes. Spoiled kids, kids with no rules, children with strict (and possibly abusive) parents… the list goes on. There are children taking medicine for ADD, depression, anxiety. These disorders are not meant to plague young children. It’s heartbreaking to see our youth of today restrained by drugs, home problems, and insensitive parents.
I come home from work drained every day. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. I wanted this summer to be one where I would be able to give to the kids. I want them to have the best camp experience they’ll ever have. It’s not only the combination of the children, but how things are run as well. I like all of my coworkers, but there are so many gaps in our communication with one another that we are constantly stepping on each others’ toes. It’s just so frustrating 😦
I’ve lifted the kids, the camp, my attitude, my patience in prayer. I don’t want to struggle with this job anymore. There are good days, but there are more days that I would label as bad.
I’m praying for guidance about how to remain positive in this job.
(9)For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. (10)And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, (11)being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully (12)giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. (Colossians 1:9-12)
A Journey of Faith 