Posts Tagged ‘Parents’


Talking Strawberries

June 21, 2008

Do you know why He doesn’t often answer prayer right away? Because he wants to talk to us, and sometimes that’s the only way to get us to stay and talk to Him. (Wild at heart, 36)

Interesting, huh? Lately, something has been sitting heavily on my shoulders. My parents. They should have no trouble talking to me, but I feel like they’re afraid to speak to me. I realize that I’m not home often, juggling work, church, friends and running. The brief times I do have with them, we talk about the weather, or some other insignificant subject.

I’m frusturated that my own family doesn’t provide much in the way of spiritual growth. Thankfully, God has put numerous friends in my life who I can talk to. But living in a Christian household should offer strengthening of my relationship with the Father. I feel like I don’t know my mom and dad (spiritually), even though I’ve been with them for over twenty years.

I’m praying for guidance in a way to talk to them. I love them, but I want something more. I want to share in our love for the lord.

I need to talk to Him and depend on Him even more. He makes a way.

May we just pause for a moment to look at His beautiful creations? The Lord is good 🙂


Diving In

June 18, 2008

From the show “Off the Grid”, Les Stroud (Survivorman) said “You have to dive head-first into your dreams”. On the show, Les and his family are transforming a barn on acerage into their eco-friendly dream home. They dove head first into their dream.

My dream is to Go. The Lord opens doors, and when I see the light, I’m diving in head first. It’s not a blind dive, because I have the Ultimate Savior guiding me. How amazing is that?

I’m diving in, I’m going deep in over my head, I want to be

Caught in the rush, lost in the flow,

in over my head, I want to go.

The river’s deep, the river’s wide,

the river’s water is alive

So sink or swim, I’m diving in!

(Steven Curtis Chapman)

I finished reading Captivating today. What a marvelous book. I cannot wait to begin Wild at Heart. I’m feeling a struggle with many things. One aspect of my life I’ve been lifting up in prayer is my family. Another facet of my life has been the struggle that is all too common to young adults: I’m having to deal with becoming my own person (shaped uniquely by the hands of God), while my parents want me to remain their little girl. There are boundaries and rules that need to be established between my parents and myself. I love my parents, yet I feel trapped and stifled in my own home. I cannot put words to it.

I desire and open relationship with them, but I feel as if they won’t open up to that idea. I’ve been asking the Lord to open up conversation with them.

Today was such a Spirit-filled day. I found myself going about my daily activities, but in a totally different fashion than before. I found myself turning to prayer throughout the day. A sense of peace simply washed over me when I had those times with Him.

On another note, hammocks are a wonderful way to enjoy the majestic beauty of the outdoors that His hands created. 🙂